Wednesday, November 26, 2008

thanksgiving run down

this blog is dedicated to all that i'm thankful for...but i wanted to remind the Internet, just how important it is that we REALLY count our blessings no matter how few or small they seem be to be. even if there's someone out there who feels like they have nothing or that nothing is going well....there is Life, there is beauty in simplicity, there is Hope.

that's a lot to be thankful for.

tonight: husband's at work, i'm eating a fantastic meal of mac'n'sneeze and merlot GOD I LOVE SIMPLE THINGS

tomorrow: bret's parents house and his stepmom's amazing thanksgiving meal straight out of better homes and gardens and the foodnetwork. I kid you not this woman's cooking is amazing. 25 family members I barely know all of whom look like tall dark Italian women with gorgeous straight brown hair and MAYBE the largest is a size 3. but they are all wonderfully warm and kind and accepting of my frizzy, tomboy, goofballness.

Friday: drivin home, bath and body works to help out during the Black Friday craziness and a sweet night with Husband

Saturday: roast lamb, velvet mashed potatoes, root vegetables au gratin, pumpkin cheesecake chocolate pie, pear and apple tart, green beans.

RIGHT NOW....oh crap the pies time to proofread!!!!

happy holidays all.

3 things:

that i found my dog on top of our patio table this appears that i've lost all control and i love it

my husband swept the house so i dont have to

my amazing amazing life and all those in it. including you.

Thursday, November 20, 2008


Yesterday was the last class for my Wednesday sections. Thank goodness, two down, 3 more to go!

I noticed yesterday though, that I did a much better job learning the male students names than I did with the female students. I thought about that for a while and this is the conclusion that I came to. The men...look significantly different from eachother. The women...they tend to wear the same styles, have the same hair colors, same make up etc. The young women whose names I did get to know, are the ones that either fall outside the norm (the emo-girl, the girl with the lip piercing, the one who dyed her hair pink)or they are the ones that made an effort to come in to see me and let me know who they were.

I feel bad for not being able to separate out blonde girl number one from blonde girl number two. And I definitely don't mean that they SHOULDN'T dress how they are, or wear their hair the way they do....It's just interesting to me that in a class of 175 people, so many of them look similar enough that I can't remember which is which.

I know there's fashion fads and trends, there are classes on that here :-) But, when is it too much? When everyone's starting to look like Carrie Underwood? I didn't pick her name randomly...she's got the same kind of "look" that alot of my female students have. Interesting how we pick our styles to define ourselves...and then inadvertently define an entire class of women.

ramble ramble rah.

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

whoopsies...made a puddle.

so last night...i was dead to the world asleep and somehow i rolled myself over and as i often do, laid my head on P's chest.

at about 4 a.m. I woke up because my face felt wet.

I had drooled so much that I made a puddle on poor P's chest.

i am such a pretty pretty princess.


3 things:

1.Mojokid is crawling forward now :-) :-) he's freakin adorable
2.I made a coupon book like Imperfect and am excited to start saving
3. meatloaf and mashed potatoes on a cold day with a good friend in a warm house.

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

2 years

Dear P,

We have been married for two years today. At risk of sounding cliche I have to tell you that it's been the most wonderful two years of my life. People always say that they "know" when they find their soul mate. You and I both agree that we did not just "know". Both of us were happy in our lives and didn't know what we were missing with out eachother. You have filled a part of my soul that I didn't know I was missing before I met you. You have brought into my life, things that I never would have considered...and now love so very much. Friday night high school football, Oasis Concerts, the mountains...I have so many great memories that would never exist had we not started dating, fell in love and got married.

I think to myself how many things had to take place for us to even meet. You had to make the decision to stay at Ohio State and not go to Toledo to go the Pharmacy Program your sophomore year. I had to decide to go to grad school and get placed in Stradley for my assistantship. Aimee had to be on my staff when she SHOULD have gone on to another building by then. You still had to keep in touch with her and be willing to come help her staff the office til she could hire freshmen. I had to just happen to be in the office the day you were giving her a hard time and you, quiet, shy, reserved, introverted you...had to ask Aimee for my information so that after you quit working there, you could stay in touch. That's a lot of "chance" that could have never happened. I think our choices in the past brought us together for our future. Once we started dating and you got deployed to England, you could have gone out with the guys...and you didn't. You were so committed to me that they started calling me "wifey". Perhaps your Guard Buddies knew then, what we hadn't realized yet.

When you came back and I was working for OU, you had a choice to come to Athens, or stay in Columbus for grad school. It was just chance that you got offered an assistantship in Athens. It was around then that I really started to "know." You kept showing me how very much you wanted to be in my life...whether it was hanging out on my couch waiting for me to come home from late meetings. Or "rescuing" the dog when my residents set off the fire alarms at 3 a.m.

I am so sorry that I doubted your commitment to me and our life together and had that meltdown the night before you proposed. I just wanted so very much to KNOW that we were going to be together. I'm not a patient person and I appreciate how you held me and kept saying 'just trust me, everything will be okay'. That's such an important role that you play in my life. I'm a doubter, a worrier...and you remind me that I just have to trust Him, trust Fate, trust You...everything will be okay.

Throughout my sister's anxiety and depression when she was so unhappy in high school, when I was so worried for said she'd be okay. She is. Through my job searching, my miserable year at THAT one college, through my own anxiety attacks. You are the only one that can hold me and tell me to breathe with you because everything WILL be okay. You have NO idea how very much I appreciate that steadiness and that compassion. I know how lucky I am as a woman, to be loved by a man that can connect with me when I'm scared and vulnerable. Through my dad's heart surgery and my mom's meltdowns..when I had to be strong for them, you were there. I know that you always will be. That's one area of my life where I do know that everything will always be okay. With you.

As mad as you can make me. As mad as I can make you (sorry). I love you with every ounce of my soul, with every cell of my being and with my whole heart.

I am so proud of you and the work that you do as athletic coordinator for osu-n/cotc. The kids you work with need you and you give them such great experiences. You are an amazingly talented man and my heart swells up with pride when I sit in the stands and watch you run around cheering them on and making sure that their games run smoothly. I know they're a pain, but you do SUCH a good job. You will be great. Your "84 year old man" in the back of your head will be very very happy when he looks back at his life.

I can't wait to see what this year brings for us. What you and I will do and experience together. I know that no matter what happens we will be better than 'okay.' It's been 2 years, I look forward to 2 million more.

All of my love, always.


Thursday, November 6, 2008

oh my gosh i've been tagged!

This is the first time I've ever been tagged...what to say what to say...

Here are 7 random tidbits about me:

1. I have several nicknames, Curly, Pottamus, Mus and Time Bandit or TB. The only nickname that is actually truly descriptive of me is Curly. The others come from my obsession with the show the Deadliest Catch and my undying love for how cute baby hippopottamuses pottami? are.
2. I have traveled outside of the country 17 times. 14 of those times were to England. dad's family is still over there and my parents are not real creative when vacation planning ;-) :-)
3. I had never seen a real mountain until I went on my honeymoon 2 years ago.
4. I actually go by my middle name and not my first name which confuses everyone. Neither of those two names is really Ann.
5. The ring tone that I have for my mom on my cell phone is the chorus of Handel's Messiah that goes "Hallelujah, Hallelujah, HAAAALLEEEEEEEEEEELUUUUUJAH" and she has called me more than once at incredibly inopportune times that have led to much embarassment and I still don't remember to turn my cell phone off.
6. I grew up reading beatrix potter and enid blyton...I can never thank my parents enough for introducing me to the world of British Literature at an early age.
7. I used to really want to be the girl that everyone admired for being sophisticated and worldly...but I've come to realize that I'm so much more comfortable with a coors light and a football game. Now I hope that if I touch someone's life it's because they know they can be real with me and be accepted for who they are at heart.

And now I tag:
My new favorite photographer because I'm pretty sure she's got fascinating things to say

another super funny lady who may just respond to the tag after she gets back from shopping for super fun christmas stuff

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

love this

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous,
talented, and fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God.
Your playing small doesn't serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other
people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine, as children do.
We are born to make manifest the glory of God that is
within us. It's not just in some of us, it's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give
other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

~Written by Marianne Williamson (Speech by Nelson Mandela)


Carry out a random act of kindness, with no expectation of reward, safe in the knowledge that one day someone might do the same for you. Princess Diana

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